In Retrospect

I was just re-reading some of posts and realized that I've been being pretty harsh about my husband. Yeah, he cheated and yeah, it sucks, but I'm not exactly the perfect wife either. I don't cook, I don't clean and I certainly don't do any yard work. He takes care of the bills, and at least for the summer, he's home with the baby and he does pretty much everything around the house. I go to work, come home and take care of Maddy (I do make all of her bottles and do all of her laundry and shop for her, and I do a lot for HER, but I don't know that I ever really do anything that benefits HIM... hmmm...) He definitely does run our household and takes care of us. I guess sometimes I take him for granted and don't really remember all the things that he does do that are very positive for me. I should probably take it a little easier on him - it's just all this crap for BIL's wedding brings all those negative feelings to the forefront and I re-live it all over again. It's just a few more weeks and then things will calm down. I think I'm going to tell him this tonight, so that he understands that I'm not just being a bitch to him for no reason - I know he'd understand if I explained it to him this way. I'm glad I posted about this stuff, but I really need to share some of these feelings with him.