I am so tired today and my back is hurting really bad. I have this awful pain in my hip, and I just want to crawl back into my bed. Unfortunately, I am still working through tomorrow. 6 more days until my c-section...
I went to the doctor this morning. Everything is fine and normal and on track.
My body is just screaming at me to rest, and I can't... it sucks.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Never in a Million Years
Friday is my last day of work before I officially go on maternity leave. Now, most pregnant women cannot wait to go on leave and are all excited about the break and the impending arrival of the new baby, right? Yeah, well that excitement is only about 20% of what I'm feeling these days. The other 80% of me is disappointed to be leaving work right now. That's crazy right? Well, it's not if your work situation is currently at a point that is career-making and a scenario that someone in your profession could only dream about... And, that is what I'm faced with.
I must tell you, seriously, I really love my job. I could not ever find a more perfect job for me at a more perfect place in this area of the country - no joke. So, when you combine the perfect job with a dream case scenario, it makes it incredibly hard to leave, even just for a short time.
You see, I am the media relations manager for a children's hospital AND next week, we have conjoined twins arriving to undergo a separation attempt.
I talked to a producer at The Today Show this morning!! I will be working with 20/20, and possibly every major network news show in the country and networks around the world! It's absolutely incredible!
The bad news is that I'll miss a little bit of the beginning and the first surgery.
The good news is that I'll be back for the second surgery and the entire rest of the process (which will actually last more than a year!).
Never in a million years did I think I would feel disappointed about going on maternity leave!!!
Now, don't get me wrong. I'm excited about the baby, and I know the minute she is in my arms, I will NOT be thinking about work until the minute I have to come back, but for now, my head is torn :)
I must tell you, seriously, I really love my job. I could not ever find a more perfect job for me at a more perfect place in this area of the country - no joke. So, when you combine the perfect job with a dream case scenario, it makes it incredibly hard to leave, even just for a short time.
You see, I am the media relations manager for a children's hospital AND next week, we have conjoined twins arriving to undergo a separation attempt.
I talked to a producer at The Today Show this morning!! I will be working with 20/20, and possibly every major network news show in the country and networks around the world! It's absolutely incredible!
The bad news is that I'll miss a little bit of the beginning and the first surgery.
The good news is that I'll be back for the second surgery and the entire rest of the process (which will actually last more than a year!).
Never in a million years did I think I would feel disappointed about going on maternity leave!!!
Now, don't get me wrong. I'm excited about the baby, and I know the minute she is in my arms, I will NOT be thinking about work until the minute I have to come back, but for now, my head is torn :)
Friday, March 23, 2007
The Little Gym
I've been meaning to post about this for some time, but life has just been so crazy that I haven't had a whole lot of time for posting...
Anyhow, when my mom has Maddy every Friday, she takes her to a class at The Little Gym. Every once in a while, she gets to take a make-up class or a re-scheduled class in the evening, and when she does, Jerry and I like to go to watch. Last night was one of those re-scheduled classes.
Watching Maddy in this environment gives such insight into her little personality. It absolutely fascinates me, especially because the more I see her, the more I see exactly how much she is just like her mama.
Maddy gets irritated if things are moving too slowly or if other kids are taking too long with things. When this happens, she walks away from the circle/activity and goes to do her own thing, usually something a little more advanced or challenging than what the group is doing. For example, instead of sitting and singing a song, Maddy is off on the side hanging from the parallel bars or walking across the balance beam. I love the way The Little Gym handles these things, they encourage you to just let the kids wander, but the adults always stick to the class activity, because eventually they will come back. She knows the whole routine of the class, and is the first one at the teacher's side to start the next activity and/or to help clean-up. She loves her teacher, and she is very eager to please her. Maddy likes to interact with other kids, but she hesitates a little at first, but once she's over the initial shyness, she is laughing and playing. She has friends in her class, Shelby and Jules. She always tells me about them, so it was cute to see them in person. I really think that Maddy will enjoy the classes as she gets older too, and she's on her own without my mom or us there. She's already so independent. Totally cracks me up.
After gym class last night, we went out to dinner with my parents and then Maddy went home with them. Madeline could not wait for that check to come. She was telling my mom to "huryup" because she wanted to go home. She knew grandma had a "prwize" for her. "C'mon guys, huryup, home, prwize." So funny. She looked right at Jerry and I and said, "bye. tomorrow" and blew us kisses across the table. She was totally ready for her time at grandma's house. I am really glad that she's like that - she enjoys her time away from us, and she looks at things with excitement, rather than with fear or hesitation.
We have her 2nd birthday party on Sunday. I cannot believe she is going to be 2 years old already! Time really does fly by. She is very excited about her Elmo party, and she knows that she is going to get presents and that people are going to sing happy birthday to her. I think she is the most excited that "Oscar" is coming to her party, which is my MIL's dog :) Maddy adores that little guy, and he's old and lazy and it's not a big deal to have him there, so MIL agreed to bring him when Maddy told her to. Maddy is totally going to get spoiled rotten by everyone, but she's so good about her "tankew" and she generally does appreciate things. She will be running around giving out hugs and kisses, because that is just how she is.
On a really annoying note, Jenna's birthday party is scheduled for the day I am supposed to come home from the hospital. I definitely will not be attending. Jerry might go with Maddy, and my mom will probably stay with me and the baby.
I'm already getting bothered by scenarios I can see happening while I'm in the hospital. There are certain members of Jerry's family that I absolutely DO NOT WANT to come and visit. They didn't visit with Maddy, but I have this odd feeling they may this time, and I will be really unhappy if they do. I'm also going to be annoyed if certain people in my family bring all of their children to see us. They did last time, and one of them had muddy boots on and got dirt all over the hospital room floor, which ultimately ended up on my feet and in my bed. Ugh. This time around I feel so different about everything, because this is not the first grandchild for anyone, and I just want things to be low-key and a lot less stressful then they were with Maddy. With both of us having big families, things quickly get out of hand, and since this one is scheduled they have had too much time to plan their visiting... it makes me nervous.
Anyhow, when my mom has Maddy every Friday, she takes her to a class at The Little Gym. Every once in a while, she gets to take a make-up class or a re-scheduled class in the evening, and when she does, Jerry and I like to go to watch. Last night was one of those re-scheduled classes.
Watching Maddy in this environment gives such insight into her little personality. It absolutely fascinates me, especially because the more I see her, the more I see exactly how much she is just like her mama.
Maddy gets irritated if things are moving too slowly or if other kids are taking too long with things. When this happens, she walks away from the circle/activity and goes to do her own thing, usually something a little more advanced or challenging than what the group is doing. For example, instead of sitting and singing a song, Maddy is off on the side hanging from the parallel bars or walking across the balance beam. I love the way The Little Gym handles these things, they encourage you to just let the kids wander, but the adults always stick to the class activity, because eventually they will come back. She knows the whole routine of the class, and is the first one at the teacher's side to start the next activity and/or to help clean-up. She loves her teacher, and she is very eager to please her. Maddy likes to interact with other kids, but she hesitates a little at first, but once she's over the initial shyness, she is laughing and playing. She has friends in her class, Shelby and Jules. She always tells me about them, so it was cute to see them in person. I really think that Maddy will enjoy the classes as she gets older too, and she's on her own without my mom or us there. She's already so independent. Totally cracks me up.
After gym class last night, we went out to dinner with my parents and then Maddy went home with them. Madeline could not wait for that check to come. She was telling my mom to "huryup" because she wanted to go home. She knew grandma had a "prwize" for her. "C'mon guys, huryup, home, prwize." So funny. She looked right at Jerry and I and said, "bye. tomorrow" and blew us kisses across the table. She was totally ready for her time at grandma's house. I am really glad that she's like that - she enjoys her time away from us, and she looks at things with excitement, rather than with fear or hesitation.
We have her 2nd birthday party on Sunday. I cannot believe she is going to be 2 years old already! Time really does fly by. She is very excited about her Elmo party, and she knows that she is going to get presents and that people are going to sing happy birthday to her. I think she is the most excited that "Oscar" is coming to her party, which is my MIL's dog :) Maddy adores that little guy, and he's old and lazy and it's not a big deal to have him there, so MIL agreed to bring him when Maddy told her to. Maddy is totally going to get spoiled rotten by everyone, but she's so good about her "tankew" and she generally does appreciate things. She will be running around giving out hugs and kisses, because that is just how she is.
On a really annoying note, Jenna's birthday party is scheduled for the day I am supposed to come home from the hospital. I definitely will not be attending. Jerry might go with Maddy, and my mom will probably stay with me and the baby.
I'm already getting bothered by scenarios I can see happening while I'm in the hospital. There are certain members of Jerry's family that I absolutely DO NOT WANT to come and visit. They didn't visit with Maddy, but I have this odd feeling they may this time, and I will be really unhappy if they do. I'm also going to be annoyed if certain people in my family bring all of their children to see us. They did last time, and one of them had muddy boots on and got dirt all over the hospital room floor, which ultimately ended up on my feet and in my bed. Ugh. This time around I feel so different about everything, because this is not the first grandchild for anyone, and I just want things to be low-key and a lot less stressful then they were with Maddy. With both of us having big families, things quickly get out of hand, and since this one is scheduled they have had too much time to plan their visiting... it makes me nervous.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
2 Weeks
I am scheduled for my c-section two weeks from today. I can't believe it is that close already! This pregnancy has really gone by so fast.
We are scheduled for 6:45 a.m., and have to be at the hospital at 5:15 a.m. Maddy will be spending the night with my sister-in-law the night before. I do not think she is going to handle the whole hospital situation very well... She freaked out when we took her to a doctor's appointment with me, crying when they took my blood pressure, because she thinks it hurts me. Then last weekend, my aunt did a cast of my belly for me, and Maddy cried then and told my aunt to "stop it." We'll see how she does... I also think she is going to have issues with other people holding the baby. She gets upset if anyone touches my belly now and says, "no, mine." If you ask her (like my mom of MIL do) if you can hold the baby when it comes out, she says, "no, Maddy." Like only Maddy can hold the baby. I think we are in for an interesting journey.
Speaking of Maddy, she got her first haircut last night. She was asleep for most of it, but was adorable when she woke up. She told my hairdresser, "Tank ooh" and gave her a hug. Too cute.
Work is totally INSANE!!! I cannot wait until next Friday!!!! I am so exhausted, and I have been working crazy hours and am just really stressed out. For those of you that have access to Sunday's Plain Dealer will know this weekend exactly why things have been completely crazy for me. Stay tuned.
We are scheduled for 6:45 a.m., and have to be at the hospital at 5:15 a.m. Maddy will be spending the night with my sister-in-law the night before. I do not think she is going to handle the whole hospital situation very well... She freaked out when we took her to a doctor's appointment with me, crying when they took my blood pressure, because she thinks it hurts me. Then last weekend, my aunt did a cast of my belly for me, and Maddy cried then and told my aunt to "stop it." We'll see how she does... I also think she is going to have issues with other people holding the baby. She gets upset if anyone touches my belly now and says, "no, mine." If you ask her (like my mom of MIL do) if you can hold the baby when it comes out, she says, "no, Maddy." Like only Maddy can hold the baby. I think we are in for an interesting journey.
Speaking of Maddy, she got her first haircut last night. She was asleep for most of it, but was adorable when she woke up. She told my hairdresser, "Tank ooh" and gave her a hug. Too cute.
Work is totally INSANE!!! I cannot wait until next Friday!!!! I am so exhausted, and I have been working crazy hours and am just really stressed out. For those of you that have access to Sunday's Plain Dealer will know this weekend exactly why things have been completely crazy for me. Stay tuned.
Monday, March 05, 2007
Viscious Cycle of Sickness Hell
WARNING: This post may contain graphic descriptions that may unsuitable for some audiences...
So, today is my first day back to work since last Tuesday. Why? Well, let's just say that a particularly common problem during pregnancy rared its big ugly head and wreaked hell on my body and soul.
You see, last Monday/Tuesday, I was having the normal constipation issues associated with pregnancy and mild/controllable hemorrhoids. No big deal. Tuesday night, we went out to dinner and I got a dish that I normally do, that I know sometimes upsets my stomach, but I thought with the constipation issue at hand this might be a good thing. WRONG. Oh so wrong. Tuesday night/Wednesday morning around 4:00 a.m., I wake up with explosive, gut-wrenching diarrhea. Several times. Then, around 7:00 a.m., I realize that I can no longer walk, sit, stand or move at all without an absolutely horrendous pain in my ass - ah yes, folks, those totally normal/controllable hemorrhoids turned into the absolute nightmare from hell. And I tried EVERYTHING to get some relief.
I began a continuous rotation of sitz baths, ice packs, creams, suppositories, Tucks pads, Dermaplast spray, medicated wipes, regular baths, showers,laying down, standing up, sitting, the donut pillow and anything else that could possibly come to mind. On Thursday, the doctor called me in a prescription, which two days later finally helped, but on Friday, I was on the phone with the doctor again in tears. And, he basically told me there wasn't anything more he could do, but if I wasn't any better by Monday (today) that he would refer me to a surgeon!!!!!
So, he basically put me on bed rest for the entire weekend and told me to continue using the prescription cream.
I followed the doctor's orders. Fortunately, the hemorrhoids did get better, but unfortunately, the stomach bug/diarrhea continued. I was up every two hours on Saturday night. I really didn't feel good or at all like eating until dinner time last night.
So, today, here I am. Back at work. Sitting on the donut pillow. Minor hemorrhoid discomfort. No more diarrhea. Thank God. I cried and prayed so hard for days that this would all go away. I have never felt so helpless and in pain EVER. I mean any other time I've had something majorly wrong that was causing pain, at least medication helped. This was terrible.
In the middle of all of this, we took Maddy to see Sesame Street Live on Saturday night (I made it through the performance alright, but couldn't eat any dinner afterwards when we all went out.) She loved it!!! Absolutely wonderful. She was just too darn cute.
Anyhow, I hope your week/weekend was better then mine!
So, today is my first day back to work since last Tuesday. Why? Well, let's just say that a particularly common problem during pregnancy rared its big ugly head and wreaked hell on my body and soul.
You see, last Monday/Tuesday, I was having the normal constipation issues associated with pregnancy and mild/controllable hemorrhoids. No big deal. Tuesday night, we went out to dinner and I got a dish that I normally do, that I know sometimes upsets my stomach, but I thought with the constipation issue at hand this might be a good thing. WRONG. Oh so wrong. Tuesday night/Wednesday morning around 4:00 a.m., I wake up with explosive, gut-wrenching diarrhea. Several times. Then, around 7:00 a.m., I realize that I can no longer walk, sit, stand or move at all without an absolutely horrendous pain in my ass - ah yes, folks, those totally normal/controllable hemorrhoids turned into the absolute nightmare from hell. And I tried EVERYTHING to get some relief.
I began a continuous rotation of sitz baths, ice packs, creams, suppositories, Tucks pads, Dermaplast spray, medicated wipes, regular baths, showers,laying down, standing up, sitting, the donut pillow and anything else that could possibly come to mind. On Thursday, the doctor called me in a prescription, which two days later finally helped, but on Friday, I was on the phone with the doctor again in tears. And, he basically told me there wasn't anything more he could do, but if I wasn't any better by Monday (today) that he would refer me to a surgeon!!!!!
So, he basically put me on bed rest for the entire weekend and told me to continue using the prescription cream.
I followed the doctor's orders. Fortunately, the hemorrhoids did get better, but unfortunately, the stomach bug/diarrhea continued. I was up every two hours on Saturday night. I really didn't feel good or at all like eating until dinner time last night.
So, today, here I am. Back at work. Sitting on the donut pillow. Minor hemorrhoid discomfort. No more diarrhea. Thank God. I cried and prayed so hard for days that this would all go away. I have never felt so helpless and in pain EVER. I mean any other time I've had something majorly wrong that was causing pain, at least medication helped. This was terrible.
In the middle of all of this, we took Maddy to see Sesame Street Live on Saturday night (I made it through the performance alright, but couldn't eat any dinner afterwards when we all went out.) She loved it!!! Absolutely wonderful. She was just too darn cute.
Anyhow, I hope your week/weekend was better then mine!
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