Even harder...

It's really scary that I wrote that post last week, and now I have to share that my brother ended up in a state mental hospital. On Thursday, when he went to the doctor, he told them how he was feeling and because he was having suicidal thoughts they would not let him leave. They evaluated him in the ER (in a room with two cops sitting outside of it), and then transported him by ambulance to the mental hospital. He's supposed to be getting out today, and he's doing better, but holy crap what a weekend!

My mom was a crying hysterical mess most of the time. I had to actually interact with the psycho bitch again. My dad was just pissed off, and Jerry didn't know what to do at all.

My brother just really couldn't let her go. Eventually she came in to see him, because he asked her to, and he wanted her to tell him that it was over, and she did. It seemed to help him a lot. He's now seeing, really for the first time, how much she changed him and how much shit he put up with from her. He listened to all of us explain how we felt about the situation and the way we've felt through this whole process. He was surprisingly calm and optimisitic (much of it I think due to the drugs they're giving him), but he really asked for our help in getting better. He needs to stay busy and get out and do things. He wants to spend time with everyone again.

He really wants to talk to Jerry. Jer wouldn't go to see him last night. He's a little weirded out by it all and feeling really guilty, because he feels partially responsible for Christopher being there (and in reality he is), and he's struggling with that a bit.

Christopher is supposed to be coming over for dinner one night this week just to talk and hang out. He really wants to re-establish his friendship with Jer. I hope that happens, and I hope that they both learn how to communicate with each other better.

At any rate - the place where he's staying is truly insane and gross. My mom sobbed at the thought of him staying there at all. He couldn't have shoes (because of shoe laces and what he could do with them). People had to sit in on visits, and everywhere you went you were locked in. Weird and scary.

I feel so bad for him, and I really hope this is what he needed to get better.

I'll keep you posted.