Tomorrow is 17 weeks

So, currently I am 16 weeks pregnant. I had my routine appointment yesterday, and did the usual rundown of weight, blood pressure, pee test, etc., and then the doc came in to listen to the heartbeat. Once again it was a little challenging, and he had to lay my head back and basically stand me on my head to find the little booger, but eventually he did and all is well. This baby is much lower in my pelvis than Maddy ever was, and he/she likes to hide on all sides of the womb (never right in the middle). I always feel this baby brushing up against a hip bone. It's really nice to notice the differences, and really start to "feel" this baby. Our next appointment is the tell-all ultrasound, and let me tell you that November 21st cannot come fast enough!

I am dying to know the sex of this baby! My gut is that it is a boy, but I don't want to get my hopes up too much.

I've been having all of these thoughts run through my head lately about what it would be like to have another girl (since I really do want another boy), and I have a hard time imagining what it would be like for Maddy to have a sister. I think because I don't have a sister. It is hard for me to imagine her sharing that "daddy's girl" role, and for her not to be the only "princess" in the house. Again, all of this stemming from the fact that I don't have a sister, and I don't think I would've liked having a sister very much. I've talked to my family about this, and they all see where I'm coming from, as they know me very well and knew what I was like as a child and I would not have done very well if I would have had to share that "girly" spotlight.

I know this is all totally ridiculous, and I will be blessed no matter what the sex of the baby, but I still cannot imagine raising two children of the same sex, and how it would be to have two girls. Hmmm...

Jerry has been trying to convince me that it would be wonderful, because he WANTS another girl. And, he is also concerned that I will have a meltdown if it is not a boy. I don't think I would have a meltdown, but I do think I would shed a couple of disappointed tears. Now, don't yell at me for that, it is completely normal and more women cry about such a thing than you think. I had a conversation with several cousins about it over the weekend, and all who did not have what they had really wanted shed a few tears and then just sucked it up and now couldn't imagine life without their perspective children. And I know the same will be true for me!

So, yeah, tomorrow is the 17 week marker. All is well. Gained 3 pounds so far. Not too shabby. Counting down the days until the ultrasound... 25 more days!